Late Night Thoughts #1

Late Night Thoughts #1

I miss when everything was as simple as
walking past a store and seeing a pair of shoes
and thinking “Wow, I would like to have these shoes”
and then moving right past the store
to the things that lay ahead

And then times grew slightly different
to where I walked past a sweet shop and saw candy
and thought to myself “Wow, I really really really want that candy”
and then moved right along past the shop
to what lay ahead

Then soon came those moments
when I walked past an ice-cream parlor and saw a soft serve
and thought to myself “Wow, I would literally do anything to have that soft serve right now”
and then moved right along, slowly, past the parlor
to whatever lay ahead

Now I find myself at a point
where I walk past a jeweler’s and see a beautiful necklace
and think to myself “Wow, I could die happy right now having that necklace…
but wait, what if it doesn’t want me? Maybe I’m not good enough to wear it? I mean look how perfect it is and how imperfect I am! It has no reason to want me! Plus, a necklace of its status must already have other, much more qualified customers looking for it! I bet it would want someone better than me. But I think I see a see a twinkle in its gem when I pass by…is it my imagination? Oh what I wouldn’t give up to just hold it in my arms”
and then inch away right along, almost crawling, past the jeweler’s
to heartache that lies ahead

Why can it not be as simple as it is in the movies?
Why have the times changed?
I sure wish I knew.